January 9, 2020

3:51pm, 1447 York Road, Towson, MD

That felt good. That felt really good. I don't care about how it looks (ok, a little bit I do). Dancing in "corporate" space feels exciting. Slow start and similar habits... I think some of my gestural movements are made out of comfort and trying to blend in. Then I let myself go and I'm rolling all over the benches. People sitting in parked cars, walking in and out and around the compound. Actively ignoring the human wiggling around on outdoor seating in 35 degree weather. I performed for myself today. I feel a bit rebellious. I waited all day to dance because I wanted to dance in Towson. An entirely different feeling/environment and right before therapy too. There is something powerful about choosing a place but also, letting a place choose you. Who cares how it looks, it felt great. Day nine.