September 5, 2020

7:43pm, E University Parkway and Charles Street, Baltimore, MD

I am disappointed in my efforts today. I struggle to feel goo about days when I prioritize rest. I am feeling pessimistic about my 2nd attempt to get pregnant. I am feeling critical of self through others. I am feeling frustrated by others not engaging with the communication efforts I share. I have not watched my dances in a few days. Prioritizing self care through cooking and nourishing myself has been challenging. I am tired and lonely. I am grateful for the cooler air and the opportunity/privilege to indulge myself. I'm not sure how I will proceed with this evening. Day two hundred forty-nine.