May 31, 2020

8:38pm, W 29th Street and Hampden Avenue, Baltimore, MD

I am ending this month on a high note. I spent all afternoon on a video shoot with some amazing folks. Tonight's site and dance are more about proximity to my home and a pending food pick up. It's always interesting to me how one day I can feel like crap, loneliness all consuming. And the next day is filled with joy, creativity, and connection. I feel like my arms are having a moment. Caught between no knowing what to do with them and them having a mind of their own. Earlier today, when I was dancing for the video shoot, I felt free. No self consciousness about being watched, in fact I like being a focal point. It was nice to not having to think about framing. I was free to dance to the music, be in the moment, and enjoy the experience of it all. I want to see if I can manifest that spirit into these daily dances. A new month approaches and life is shifting yet again. One day at a time has gotten me this far. Now for dinner. Day one hundred fifty-two.