May 23, 2020

5:20pm, Roland Avenue and Deepdene Road, Baltimore, MD

I headed north on Roland Avenue and this parking garage presented itself. I tried spending some time dancing with music. I felt myself the most in my hips. It's in the 80s today and sunny. Had I been smart and put sunscreen on, I might have allowed myself to pick a site without cover. This garage is dank and dirty. A car rolled in as I was beginning and eventually left. I felt fluid but I wonder if I will look fluid. My body and mind are tired from staying up too late last night. Sometimes I like what my hands and arms are doing. I thought about Cristal and Peter and slowdanger while dancing. The ground is too dirty to feel comfortable doing extended floor work. Maybe that will be a goal for this next week. But also, being present for the dance that wants to emerge is equally valid. Something feels missing from inside me... food? Sleep? Human touch? I guess today is more of a reflection on my physical being. There were some moments of back bending. While it felt like I spent considerable time there, I'm guessing they are still brief in the larger scale of things. I feel weirdly loose in my core but that could be a contrast highlighted by tightness in my quads and hips. I've begun to truly miss the gym. Having a regular studio for dance explorations. Access to weights. And the energies of other people working out. Do I miss people? Day one hundred forty-four.