October 8, 2020

6:32pm, JHU Homewood campus, just off of a paved trail, Baltimore, MD

I am feeling nostalgic for the first day of this year. There was a lot more hope and excitement than in this particular moment. Somehow, I feel as though I've danced here before. Maybe all of JHU feels familiar like that because of how much I have danced on this campus. I tried to let go of my body. It's challenging when I'm bleeding. I really just want to be curled up into a ball. 22 days until daylight saving and then there will be many more night dances. I wish I could fly home. Day two hundred eighty-two.