May 26, 2020

8:16pm, Johns Hopkins Homewood Campus, Bowman Drive behind Hodson Hall, Baltimore, MD

I did not feel like leaving my neighborhood this evening. I did not feel like dancing either. I feel like my motivation for this project is dipping a bit. That is to be expected. The end of last week felt exciting and vibrant... both in life and in this work. I did not have any expectations for what today's site or dance would turn out to be. I know I am craving greenspace. My body has been working a lot with yoga, biking, and dancing. I still crave a deeper capacity to perform at a certain physical level. I am always striving for more. The real challenge is to strive for more while being present in what is. Is that too contradictory? I never feel like I eat enough food or drink enough water. I will be shifting back into a more regular work schedule as the next few weeks unfold. This summer will be strange, I think. Day one hundred forty-seven.