March 26, 2020

Roosevelt Park at the end of Poole Street, Baltimore, MD

I am full of grief right now. Anxiety, sadness, a bit of terror... Yesterday I have a great outlook and today I feel hopeless again. Needed to get outside to distract myself and dance. Once again thinking of one location and ending up at a different site on the way. Everything is different and the same. Today's prompt is COMPRESS. I feel compression in my core today. I don't feel like the dance was anything special. I hung out and stretched and prepared before I danced. There are a ton of people out... I didn't wear a mask today. I don't know what to do or what to think. Compression is therapeutic. I think in some ways the compression I feel while moving around on the ground/floor is notable. Today is sunny. I want to run away to the woods... unfulfilled dreams. What will tomorrow bring? More feelings, more compression... A hug would provide compression. I miss hugs. I miss a lot of things. One day at a time. That's all we get anyway. Day eighty-six.