April 7, 2020

2:31pm, Mosher Street and Malster Avenue, Baltimore, MD

Prior to even beginning the dance, a cop whips into the private parking lot I am in and slow rolls me. Then he leaves, likely confused about what I'm actually doing. A minute of so into the dance, a MICA security vehicle pulls in and does the same thing. Police protect wealth. I'm on MICA's campus and they are a private art college that deals in a lot of wealth. I don't get policed on a regular basis because I am a white woman. Let me just say this now, I have the police. Today's prompt is SURRENDER. This site was selected by chance and because it is/was sprinkling a bit. Just did a few mask drop offs and am finishing up my outside time with my daily dance. Rode my bike today. Feels so good. I need to not be afraid and ride more... carefully though. I picked SURRENDER for today. I felt like I truly embodied what surrender feels like for me right now. Mask on, heavy breathing, some vocalizations... How do we surrender to the world? How do we surrender to ourselves? In this time of un-quantified uncertainty, how do we use surrender as a survival tool? As an opportunity to grow? No one knows and we must surrender to that. My body temp is coming down and I'm getting a slight chill. Time to head home and eat and sew. Day ninety-eight.